It’s been awhile

I'm going to be completely honest and real. It's been awhile and I have really been struggling with the weekly chemo schedule. My mood hasn't been the cheeriest because I am so fatigued. I felt like if I had nothing good to say then I should keep it to myself. The despair is heavy. My world feels small

and boxed in. I haven't been feeling the holiday season but we did celebrate with my mother and my sister's family in Eau Claire. I feel frayed and weary, even after a nap. I finally got out for a walk at my favorite nature park today and that helped lift my spirits and mood. It's been too cold to walk but we are getting a break in the weather. But I had to push myself.

I've had eight weeks of taxol and the oncologist wants me to have 12 weeks if I can tolerate the potential increase in neuropathy.

I made a rather square attemp at a round mandala circle at "my tree" with some sticks and flowers. At least I had the ability to recognize that I needed some flower therapy and tree therapy time today. I plan to return to the park early in the week, before I return to Mayo for no less than six different appointments next Thursday and Friday! I'm exhausted just thinking about next week's appointments but I am looking forward to meeting the social worker. Freddy and I need connections for resources. I'm applying for grants and hope she will help me find more resources. If only I could work. But that's just not possible at this time.

Here's the deal for you to comment on this post. If you haven't already, join this website and then you can comment on the post, so I will be moving the blog into the forum, so to speak. Thanks for reading and for the support. I hope you have a joyful new year! ❤️